With great sadness...

We are so saddened to hear our friend Viv lost her Mom today, thoughts and prayers going out to her and her family.

Prayers..

Please pray for the family of Tim McLean of Winnipeg.
Our condolences go out to them, such a horrific, tragedy..

With great sadness..

Cracker "Jack" of Diamonds. May 26th 1993 -June 20th 2008

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....
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Losing my best friend...

I can't find the words, I'm not going to even try to express the anguish our family is experiencing. Jack our 15 year old friend is suffering, his hips keep going out , he has started to lose control of some of his functions and we know what is happening. We will not see him suffer, I am crying as I am typing, it's getting to hard to see the keys, so I will return soon, time is needed. I can't even bear the thought of having to tell our girls, he's not our dog, he's a member of our family, my first baby, this is too much to deal with...

Update.

The vet has doubled up on Jack's meds, we know we are buying time, he is not in pain and we are having some quality time spoiling him and saying our proper goodbyes. It seems selfish but we need this time, I need this time..

A huge thank you for all your wonderful comments, they all(each and every one of them) mean so much to us. Tracy and Kayce, thank you being there, understanding what is going on all too well. Thank you...

A country in mourning.

A country is in mourning, 1.3 Billion people were asked to observe 3 minutes of silence Monday as China begins 3 days of mourning.The national flags are flying half staff and the Olympic torch relay has been suspended.The flag flying half staff in Tiananmen square.

Devastation..

I haven't written about the earthquake prior to this post, I didn't have the words, I still don't.

The scope of this tragedy is beyond me, my heart is so saddened for the victims, their families and for my daughter's birthplace.

Jillian was born in Fuling, we have received word there was minimal damage to their orphanage and the babies are fine. What they can't tell us of course is if my daughter's birth family was affected, if they suffered loss, we will never know, this is so difficult.

I have prayed for them.

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Embrace life...

Today my family has been once again been reminded to embrace family and friends.
Twice in 6 weeks a young life has been taken.
Fourchildren are to grow up without their Dads.
We can not wrap our heads around this, our faith is being tested.
From the loss of these two wonderful men we have learnt a valuable life lessons.
Live your life to the fullest, embrace your family and friends, tell them NOW you love them.

It doesn't make sense.

Once again it has affected our family, my Hubby is losing a friend as I type. My hubby 's co-worker and friend is in hospital ending his very long battle, he is surrounded by his wife and two young children. My prayer now is that he finds peace and goes without anymore pain and suffering.
Are thoughts are with Kerri and her two children. May they find their strength, faith and be surrounded with love and support.

With Our Sympathy

To Anne, Kyra and Grace our thoughts and prayers are with you at this time.

Wishes.....

Yesterday our family found out someone who we have shared something monumental and life changing with is fighting for his life. This has rocked our family beyond belief, we can't begin to share the emotions we felt this morning.
After getting the news, sharing tears, I decided to take my girls to the park and just breath in there innocence. I watched them play oblivious to the pain of the world can offer, I watched them giggle, chase each other, hug, pretend to be someone else and escape into a make believe place. I felt almost jealous that I was a grown up and my heart couldn't forget the pain it was feeling.
I wanted to escape to the make believe magical place where I could laugh and forget and not think about B and his family and how much they are hurting.
Just when I thought my precious five year old hadn't got it, she began to pick the old dandelion heads in a big bouquet. With a very serious little face she asked her sister to come over to Mommy. Standing in front of me she asked me blow the dandelion and help her wish come true. I asked her what her wish was, half expecting her to say what she always does, a horse Mom.
My eyes welled and a lump held the cries in my throat as she replied, "All these wishes Mommy are for K and G's Daddy to get better and stay with them."
I had thought she didn't get it......

I love you Princess puddin' pop, you show me the wonders of mankind and how good people can be. I am so proud to be your mommy.

Our thoughts are with you B. Fight.

A day of injustice and Sadness

Four Doctors and a U.S. drug company were acquitted of criminal charges relating to the distribution of a tainted blood-clotting product that left many infected with HIV and hepatitis C in one of Canada's biggest public health disasters.
After an 18-month trial, Superior Court Justice Mary Lou Benotto acquitted former officials from the Canadian Red Cross Society, Health Canada and New Jersey-based Armour Pharmaceutical Co. of criminal negligence causing bodily harm and common nuisance endangering the public.
Dr. Roger Perrault, the society's former national medical director, former Health Canada officials Dr. John Furesz and Dr. Donald Boucher, and ex-Armour Pharmaceutical executive Dr. Michael Rodell were charged with one count each of criminal negligence causing bodily harm and common nuisance endangering the public after patients were given the infected blood-clotting product in 1986-87octors in Canadian Tainted Blood Trial.

My emotions today from 4pm on have been anger, sadness and that of disbelief.

How could this happen??? What happened to our justice system today??

What about lives lost, families lives turned upside down, ongoing suffering, financial losses and I could go to fill this freaking page!!

I wanted closure, there was none today, I was in total shock watching Dr. Perrault slither his way out of the courthouse saying he was okay with the verdict??

Well let me tell you how my life had been 10 years ago, it was turned upside down finding out that I was Hep C positive from a tainted blood transfusion. Newly married to a wonderful man thinking my wonderful life as I knew it was over. It jeopardized my employment, I quit my job, too sick to work, it almost cost me an adoption of my daughter. How do you think it was to be on treatment for 18 months, my 3 yr old rubbing my back while I threw up 3/4 's of my day. How did it feel when I discovered hunks of my hair surrounding me in the bathtub one morning, do you care? I am one of the LUCKY ones, I have been inactive for 2 years, what about the ones who succumb to the pain and suffering of HIV and HEP C, what about their loved ones they infected, is there anything more horrific to think you gave the woman or man you love a disease that is going to take their life. What about the loved ones left to mourn and suffer the loss of a parent, sibling, spouse, they now have to live out their lives thinking their family members died in vain? There is also a huge financial burden on these families, having these health issues has cost people their jobs, their lively hood and dignity.

I sit here tonight my fingers shaking at the keyboard from rage, having my own pity party of how this has robbed me of so much. All I ever wanted was someone to say to me "WERE SORRY", this was too much to ask.

So now I say it to those affected so tragically with this scandal, "I am so sorry this happened to you and your family, my heart aches with you, for your pain and suffering. You are all in my thoughts tonight and my prayers.

An angel got her wings.....

At Grandma's house
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I have sat down to the computer a couple of times in the last few hours and couldn't type because the tears welled and in my eyes making the page a blurr. On wednesday the 9th I lost my beloved Grandma, she was buried yesterday, making this the most painful Mother's day for my family.
My Grandma was not "just" my Grandma, she was too my mentor and one of my best friends. My Mom and Dad were sixteen and twenty when I was born so my Grandma was a very important part of my upbringing, I spent almost every weekend with her and Grandpa and I did spend the summers with them at our cottage in Port Burwell.
I was so thrilled my Grandma got to be a part of our adoption process right from the dossiers to the homecoming at the airports, this was so important to her as she was there also to help me heal and grieve through my hysterectomy in my mid twenties.
My Gran was a beautiful woman, strong , independent, she overcome so many of life's obstacles with such fight while maintaining such grace and dignity.
Today has been such a hard day remembering to smile at my own children as they presented me with homemade mommy cards and gifts as my grief is gripping my heart.
I want to thank her for being the best Grandma and great Grandma, I love and miss you, your legacy and love will live forever in our hearts.