Monday, June 9, 2008

Losing my best friend...




I can't find the words, I'm not going to even try to express the anguish our family is experiencing. Jack our 15 year old friend is suffering, his hips keep going out , he has started to lose control of some of his functions and we know what is happening. We will not see him suffer, I am crying as I am typing, it's getting to hard to see the keys, so I will return soon, time is needed. I can't even bear the thought of having to tell our girls, he's not our dog, he's a member of our family, my first baby, this is too much to deal with...
Update.
The vet has doubled up on Jack's meds, we know we are buying time, he is not in pain and we are having some quality time spoiling him and saying our proper goodbyes. It seems selfish but we need this time, I need this time..
A huge thank you for all your wonderful comments, they all(each and every one of them) mean so much to us. Tracy and Kayce, thank you being there, understanding what is going on all too well. Thank you...

33 comments:

4D said...

I am so sorry to hear this. Hugs and hope to you.

Keep smilin!

Pug Mama said...

I am so very sorry. I wish I knew the words..............

Cyndi said...

I feel for your family. we had the same thing happen i know what you are going through I will pray for you and sweet Jack.

Kayce said...

Oh Kerri...I had no idea when I emailed you....

I am so sorry! I'm here for you, anytime. I know just where you are right now.

RamblingMother said...

Kerri, I am so sorry for your pup and you. {{hugs}} to you all.

Half Gaelic, Half Garlic! said...

I am so sorry to hear about Jack....it is so hard to deal with this kind of loss....there are no words to describe the grief you feel!

I will be holding a good thought for you and the family!

Aimee said...

hugs,
Love
Connie

OH MY #6 said...

oh dear. this is not an easy thing to go through my friend. I will be thinking of you. He looks like a beautiful soul.

Lea
xo

mommy24treasures said...

I am so sorry... my comment I was logged in as someone who had asked me to do a bloggy favor for them and in my carelessness I forgot to log out after I fixed their issue.
Big Hugs
Connie

Vivian M said...

Oh Kerri, our family knows what you are going through only too well. We send you huge hugs, and our sincere condolences. Your beloved pet will forever be a part of your family, even from Heaven.

Tracy and Bob said...

Keri, you know that I totally understand what you are going through. Saturday will be a year that Bonnie was taken from us. Although I have accept that she is gone but I am still not o.k. with it, I still cry, I still feel sad when I think of her, I still think I am going to walk through the door and she will be there.

I know that there are no words I can say to you to make this better, there is nothing that I can do to take away your pain but know that I am wrapping my arms around you and your family and crying with you, I will be thinking of all of you.

Hugs
Tracy

polkadot said...

Tears.

Kelley said...

I am so so sorry!

Anonymous said...

We had to make this horrible decision in February of 2007. I still cry for my baby. I still look for her.
I am so sorry. I wish I could wrap you up in a big hug and tell you it will be okay. I know the hurt and I am so very sad for you.

Kim said...

I am sooo sorry..
HUGS to you my friend..
Take as much time as needed..We are all here for you..

D & S said...

I know exactly how you feel. We just lost our Jazz two days ago. My heart feels like it's been torn in two.

I'm so sorry, sweetie. I'm crying right beside you.

kitchu said...

Oh god Kerri. My heart is just breaking for you and tears are running down my cheeks knowing the grief you are suffering.

I am so, so sorry.

Dawn - AB Family said...

(HUGS) to all of you.
I'm tearing up just thinking about it. Pets are a very big part of a family and they mean so much to us. I often refer to our dog as "the love of my life", yes even over Chris (he knows it).
Thinking of you at this time :(
D

Nikki said...

Oh Kerri, my heart is just aching in my chest for you...know that you are being thought of and prayed for as you go thru this very difficult time.

(I'm always just an email away...)
LOVE YOU!

Steffie B. said...

I am so sorry Kerri.....it is so hard to put a beloved pet down. I will be thinking and praying for you.

Hugs,
Stefie

Sam said...

Oh Kerri! I am so so sorry!!! I know how much this hurts. It is such a hard thing to go through. My Harry has only been gone about a month, but it still hurts. Lots of hugs and prayers go out to you, my friend, and your family too.

mommy24treasures said...

thanks for the update, so sorry my friend...
Love
C

Half Gaelic, Half Garlic! said...

Hey Kerri,

Glad to hear that you all have a little more time with him...I know it is tough...will be thinking about you guys!

lisa

Steffie B. said...

Thinking of you.....

Jewels of My Heart said...

Oh, Kerri, I am so very sorry.... I know how bad it hurts to say goodbye.... I do believe animals go to heaven and because of Jesus we will one day be reunited with our dear friends...
I will be praying for your family and your precious Jack...
God's Peace....

JMCS said...

Oh Kerri! I just saw the post about Jack. I am so sorry to hear that he is not doing well. I hope that Jack gets to feeling better. I am sending well wishes his way.

We also have a dog who is part of our family and it really hurts to think of anything happening to our furbabies. I am sending a big hug your way.

Hugs,
Jonni

Sophie's Mom said...

I'm sooo sorry. (((((hugs)))))

Some people just can't understand the love for a pet (family member).

Lucky Jack to feel all your love.

Tracy and Bob said...

Kerri, I've been thinking about you and still sending those hugs!

Talk all the time you need to say goodbye, when it's time you will know.

Hugs
Tracy

redmaryjanes said...

I have been where you are and it is awful. I do not think you are selfish, you are acting out of love. I wish you peace my friend. I do believe it is rare to have a pet that truly captures the hearts of a family and is a true member.

Maia said...

Oh Kerri, there is nothing harder. WHat a sweet dog, you can see it in his face. As a woman who loves her dog more than life itself, I can well understand. I thought I was losing my dog this past winter and I have never in my life been so depressed - I was a complete mess. (In my case it turned out to be a false alarm - he's only 9, so we've got some time. But I know the day will come, and I completely can not face the thought. I think I'd like to be put down along with my dog, when the time comes. I'm only half joking.)

mommy24treasures said...

you are in my thoughts... Have a good weekend friend.

Nikki said...

Just stopping by to let you know you're on my mind...

"M2" said...

Kerri,
I'm so so sorry.
It is so hard and sad and I hope this extra time can give you some peace.
I've never cried so much in my life as when we lost our dog.
now I have 3 over the age of 12 and I just know what's coming.
sending you huge hugs

(it's s. agent) I screwed up my blog profile